Showing posts with label The Lancastrians. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Lancastrians. Show all posts

Friday, July 10, 2009

Bonds...

I open my eyes
And the sea of seas lies there.

It is the stuff of legends
And I am crossing it with a penurious boat and music in my ears.

The bonds we share,
Are they anything more than a feeling?

Would you die to protect them?
Would I die to protect them?

The bonds we share,
Are they anything more than a feeling?

Friday, June 26, 2009

A glimpse of the future past or retrospective visions

Black stand the sands of time.
Shallow stand the waters of the sea.

Forsaken lands and the hope of dreams brought them together.
The end of dreams and the harsh reality will bring them apart, just around the corner.

Cometh and goeth the waters.
Archaic form of the never ending change, these waters hold the key.

Forgetfulness is not the issue but living is.
Through the vagaries of time and the fights within and without,
thus shall life find new paths to tread upon.

The waters move and so does the earth beneath them, with them.
Turbulent as they might be and deep beyond reckoning,
they shall always be there to provide us the layaway.

Emotions of the past uncovered in this present or that future,
shall be the companions of a lifetime as long as they remain carefully sealed behind the mind's doors.
And be that they escape, be grateful,
for they show who you really are and what carry you with you.

Step on the water with the fear of God and the love of man,
and walk on them as an angel sent to carry a message.
For the watery ways shall always provide you with a safe passage to the strange lands of glory,
even if it is fire, wind and earth that you carry.

Bonds forged in a tense time full of passion and relative innocence,
even though it seemed forging them took time, moths or even years,
they shall be destroyed in a mere moment, random or conscient.

And as the waters bring you forth every time,
so will the tide take you back.
And as you came into life so shall you un - come.

Black stand the sands of time, but walk them and they shall turn to gold.
Shallow stand the waters of the sea, but decide to cross them and you shall see they're deeper than they look.

Reincarnation or the memories of a life past.

The dog put his head out of the window of the moving car. Aaaaa. The weather was hot, more than it should. The air of the moving car made him feel nice. He felt the air going through his hair and his nose got to cool off. He liked it... The way the hot air was caressing his hair because of the car's speed that... He liked it. Next step the tongue out. Aaaa... This was the epitome of happiness. Cool tongue. He flapped his tongue in and out and felt a giant amount of joy that he expressed by barking thank you to the gentle wind that embraced the car. His mind wandered off. He thought of the party last night. He liked his Master's parties, there was always someone that would care enough for him and play with him for some time. He kind of missed playing. He was already 5 years old and in human years that meant he had already reached 35. Aaa, he thought life runs faster than me and put his head back in the car and sat down in the back seat resting his head on the lap of little Mistress. He came to think about his life. People tend to think that anything besides the human life is simple and uncomplicated. How wrong they were.



But that was not what was troubling him. Lately he had these flashes, something like intense memory flashes. He remembered a human life. He wondered how it could be possible to remember a life before the one that you are living now and especially one of a different species. He remembered once he'd heard his Master talking about the meaning of reincarnation and how people who have done bad things in their life come back in the form of an animal or a tree. So he wondered whether he had done actually something so bad so God decided to send him back as a dog to teach him a few things or if this was just a great joke played by God. Maybe some clerical error in God's administrative services sent him back in such a dog body.



He didn't think about it a lot and suddenly he felt a scratch on his back. So he rolled over with his feet in the air trying to scratch his back on the seat, but the little Mistress thought he wanted to play and scold him. Thank God he'd already scratched his back. So there he was thinking of his older life again. He remembered himself as what the humans call a man. He did not remember much details of this life certainly he could not remember names and places. All he had where these flashes that came and went.



Pictures of a life he couldn't but ask himself whether it was true or invented. Memories some times seem to be subjective. A subjective, self-referenced narration of acts that, you and others did. And besides that, the fact that everyone used different words to describe the same things could even more worsen the ability of anyone to recall a memory in "objective" terms. He wondered whether the other dogs smelled different things the same way he did.

He was tormented by the same flashes though, for quite some time now and he could not but think about them especially when he sat leisurely in someone's lap, like now. The flashes were intense, they came and went in their own will and he could not really make sense of their order or something. He saw the man walking to the beach, working, making love, partying. He saw him in various instances through the course of the man's life. Normally he wouldn't feel worried but his dog senses felt alarmed every day he had one of those flashes and in the past few times his senses went pretty much crazy. However he was a dog after all and during such trips he used to dose off in the lap of Little Mistress. So he opened his mouth and yawned; turned a bit and tried to dose off upon the tender lap.



The flashes however were not on strike today. He saw himself as a human again only this time the flash was the worst ever. He could actually feel every bit of life flowing through such a human body and the sensation startled him. He tried to bark aloud in his dream in a futile effort to escape it but curiously enough the only thing that came out of his mouth were human screams. He then turned his head. He saw himself in a dark, damp and dirty alley; down towards the end of the alley he saw his dog self looking at him. He stayed petrified. His dog self was looking at his human self...How could that be, that both selves were present in the same dream? Oh lord that was weird. His dog self was barking at his human self. Why? He tried to bark back in an effort to talk with his dog self in the dream but no luck... His dream dog self did not seem to notice. So he tried looking around as a human. Then it was when he saw it... He looked down and he saw the body of a young woman lying over there covered in something that looked like... Blood... Where did this blood all come from...?



A half naked body of a young woman laid in front of him shot dead with blood all over. He looked at his shirt; his hands; his trousers...Blood everywhere... He put his hands down to touch the street and his right hand grabbed something that felt like a gun. He picked it up and there he saw the murder weapon a small revolver 6 shots loading. He looked at the woman, 4 shots; stomach, heart, shoulder, head. Two should be left still in the gun. He thought very fast to unload them both on himself. But something stopped him. It was a dog barking at the end of the alley. He could draw unwanted attention to him. The dog had to die. He walked towards the dog; the dog didn't move but was barking continuously... He reached closely and shot. The dog fell dead. For a moment he stayed there looking the dead dog. It was strange, he felt more sad for the dog than the body that laid back there. A beautiful young woman dead. Covered with blood. He'd already forgotten what she was to him, why he had killed her. But the dog, the dog had something extremely familiar. He turned the gun to himself and pulled the trigger. As his human body fell to the ground his soul realised he had just killed himself in another life.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

ABSTRACT

The Hands unite in a holy Union
The passion burns the bodies
The friendship is melted into a lava of love
Marriage: the Holly Union!

“Will You marry me” the man asked…
“Yes” the woman answered. With all my body, with all my soul I shall commit to You my love!!!

In the holly union, the man and the woman dance the Dance of the Gods!
The spirits, raised by the pouring spirit, fire; life
Life is fire; Fire is life, the ultimate steam!

“Kiss me”, the man said, “Kiss me under the Gee” “For a kiss under the Gee lasts for ever” “Kiss me!”
The woman slowly reached his lips…
The eternal couples show our desire….
Our time is enhanced…Desire that centuries have grown… Desire that has flown away…

Oh! Joy! Oh! Happiness!
Oh! Exhilaration of the virgin mother
Oh! Virgin Mary of my love!
Is the bible full of love or am I a fool?

Cherish the birth of these emotions
Cherish the death of them
Hades is near

Oh! Eternal Father. Oh! Birth of Souls!
Oh! Sacred Mystery. Oh! Sacred Touch!
I beseech You…

Oh! Loneliness of love. Oh! End of the beginning.
Oh! Dawn of the Sun. Oh! Dawn of the Moon.
The Sun is setting in the sweet Suites of our companions.
With it sets the Sun of our Love.

The abstract painting shows the art of our companions.
The art of our companions is shown in the abstract.

Farewell.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Ode to A Lady

Oh! What is that I see?
Oh! What is a man coward if not one who dares not his love to admit?
And what love shall this be?
What story?
Of seduction, of passion, of vile and treachery, of deception
Or of hidden secrets and secret desires ones that never saw the light of day, which never felt the breeze of air, which failed to be spoken of, which have always resided in the depths of hearts?


Oh! Hear me my beauty; hear me my Queen for it is I that speak
It is my heart’s desire to admit.
It is a story I want to tell to you, so that in the end of days your heart and mine might always, as well travel together.
For it is not a lie, but nor is it truth
It is my mind’s words, driven by my heart’s desires in a mad man’s world…
Oh! Hear me; Hear me my spring, my eternal youth


Hear me not for pity or curiosity
Hear me not for nothing better
But hear me for that’s what thou wilt
Otherwise tear these words out of my heart, tear these emotions out of my frail body
Dump them my lady into the sea beyond the seas
Abandon them in a cold river on a rainy winter day
And think not for a moment that I am drunk
Because drunk I am not, not from the spirits that haunt a youth’s nights that is
But I am drunk, drunk from my emotions, from my body’s lust, from my mind’s blur


But if you do want to hear my lady, Oh! My fair Lady then listen to what I have to say and judge me later


For I have nurtured your image in my mind, in my innermost thoughts, from the first moment I laid my eyes on you
Oh! My lady, my memory still remembers and cherishes your first smile, your first look, your first appreciation
And where should I start my description, what should I remember first?
Your hair black as a night’s spell or your eyes’ same color as the black depths of the sea?
Your figure’s air and gracious movement or your body’s lustful breeze?
Shall I remember your smile that lit your eyes and made your body tremble?
Shall I remember your hands, soft and caring as a mother’s gesture to her infant child?


Oh! My fair lady, though fair thou art not
What beauty has the almighty sun graced you with?
What colors that your skin embraces, how soft can your touch be?
For among everyone, I remember You!
The first time I saw You!
I remember your whit, your brilliance, your courage
How one can be filled with God’s grace?
Is it You my darling, is it You?


What music plays when you walk by, what music your voice creates?
Violins and pianos, guitars and trumpets, shall sing your coming?
You shall be greeted by a thousand birds and a thousand rose petals will show the way you walk upon
What great lights accompany you and create an apparition like nothing else
Oh! My blinded, from thou beauty, eyes, can only sense your coming
But no sense is enough to satisfy my hunger for you
No emotion can fill my heart, no presence


And what feelings are these?
What crazy thoughts?
From a heart that will not obey, from a mind that will not loose hope?
Alas I know your heart is promised elsewhere!
Alas I know my princess I am not the prince you were waiting…
Oh! Horrible fate, Oh! God’s will
If not for my frail body, if not for my even frailer heart and lost mind
I might have stood a chance
I might have wore a shinning armor just for you my Queen
Just for you!


And what can a man do to offer you happiness?
I know not!
But Oh! My Queen I would bring the stars to your feet,
I would wreck the earth to bring you anything that you desire,
I would travel to four corners of the world to bring you the most beautiful jewels my Queen
And though no jewel be compared to your beauty,
You my Queen would be a star among stars,
Your own light, your presence would reflect upon the jewels forged in the depths of the earth and your shine transmitted to ends of the world!
Oh! My princess I bow before thy
I offer you my heart; A holly sacrifice
For I can not offer lions or great beasts, nor can I battle armies to prove my bravery
But this, my Queen I can offer; my heart, my soul altogether to make you happy!
For a glimpse of your shine my love would make me the happiest man alive


Oh! Tragic moment of the end
Oh! Tragic loss of existence
Oh! Fight For I want to know you better than anything
For I want to communicate with you so hard
Oh! God grant me Thy will
Let me know her like Adam knew Eve


But alas! A lot the miseries of man
A lot the lost labors of love
For failure is better than the fear of it
For fear rules my life
For my eyes have long lost the sight of Your hope
For all I can do is look at You from a distance
Hiding in the shadows
Disfigured?
In the soul


Oh! Moment of happiness in front of my eyes
You shall pass
Oh! Delirium of joy when I see you
Oh! What a man’s drunken tales when I touch You
Oh! What hunger does your sight satisfy?


Alas! Alas! Alas!
I have to fly, my beauty of a thousand worlds!
But know that I will always be hiding in the shadows!
Know that I will always be watching over You!
And no matter what, no matter happens, even if eons walk our path, even if all the world looses faith in you
I! I shall always be there, a loyal friend, a humble servant
I will always believe in you like Argus of Ulysses


Farewell my Queen, farewell my love, I leave you now to hide once more
I leave you now alone to seek your happiness away from me
I shall always remember You
I shall always cherish you in my weak heart, in my frail body, in my clouded mind…
Farewell!

Friday, April 07, 2006

A DREAM

Falling Asleep

Dream that crawls upon me in the night,
I call upon thy to tell your story
To recite your deeds
To state your needs

First Scene: The Darkness

Oh! Darkness of the endeavour
Life's opposite Death not!
Pain!
Love's opposite hate not!
Treason!

Heart of mind
Mind of heart
Body and soul
My psyche aches because her pain leaves me not.


Oh! You soul of misery!
Oh! You body of obesity!
Where are thou brain?
Where are thou heart?
Where art thou?

Oh! Vastness of darkness
Oh! Darkness of solitude
The life that calls
The pain that answers

Oh! Night
Night when the soul falls into the darkness
Darkness vast and thick
Look at the stars!
Grab on them and be saved
Count them and die!

The end is near
Near is the end, a new beginning, a new dawn...

Second Scene: The Woman

Oh! Luscious curves that the darkness you win
Oh! Seductive curves that on you I demand my reigns
Oh! Naked curves that peace you bring
Peace in the eye, Peace in the mind, Peace in the soul
Hermes of Praxiteles, a woman.

Third scene: The Veins

Veins of Blood
Blood; The giving of life
Life the answer
Veins of ambrosia
Ambrosia the food of Gods
Immortality is the search
Veins of pus
Pus the death of hostiles
Destruction is the result
Veins of light
Light; The birth of man
Love is the endless circle

Scene Fourth: The Sacrifice

I want to tear up my heart cut it in pieces and give it away
Each piece will carry a part of me and my soul
This way wherever You go I will be with You

Feel my pain
Feel my body aching
Feel the depth of my sorrow
Feel my misery
Feel the deepest of my love
Come; Set me free!
Kill me!

Scene Fifth: The Desperation

Oh! Body of my dreams
Grant me my wish
Grant me a naked night
Love me with passion
Despise me with hate
Make love to me to the end of the world
Throw me away as garbage
Kiss me, Kiss me
Spit on me, Spit on me, molest me
I shall get what I deserve but never You!

Scene Sixth: The Substitute

Oh! Fake passion of misery
False love of boredom
Termite wood you are and you shall be consumed
I shall not let you proceed
I shall not let you pass

Scene Seventh: The enlightenment

Oh! My burdened soul
Prisoner of another world
A past that never existed
Only in Your mind, my heart
Only in Your mind
Cry! Cry!
Free yourself
Cut the bounds, if You can!
Oh! You distressed heart why to seek redemption?
Oh! You filthy beast of the past why do not stay locked in Your cage?
What is Your purpose?
Why do you haunt my soul?
Why do you haunt me?

Waking Up

Breathe!
The Dream is over!
Breathe!
You are alive
Breathe!
You shall live on!
Breathe!
Fear not, in the end You will not die alone!
I shall not allow this!

AND I AM GOD!

Breathe!

My Little Red Riding Stick

RED RIDING STICK


To thou red riding stick this poem I devote


Oh! You so red and long

Oh! You so hard and long

Oh! You so sweet and pounding

Oh! You so hot and inviting


Oh! You my only companion

Oh! You my joy of nights

Oh! You my joy in days far and far boring

Oh! You my only escape

Oh! You my only friend


Come Oh! You, my red riding stick

Come and show me the way

Come and take me away

Come and fire me a straight


Oh! Red riding stick

How much I enjoy riding you

And You me...

Let me ride you my riding stick

Let me for one last time feel your surface caressing my thighs

Oh! You my riding stick how red and hard you can be.....


Oh! You a stick for holes

Oh! You when I in the hole put

Oh! What is that I am feeling?

Like tons of data and information flowing through my body

And I cry out more and more and more......


Oh! You soft and sweet

Oh! That you become even softer and sweeter when I in my mouth you put

Oh! My, my, what a sensation what a feel

Oh! How I like to use my tongue to thoroughly investigate you

Up down I lick you

Up down......

Ride Your Sticks!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

RAIN

Oh! Rain
Oh! Rain that you fall
Oh! Rain light, thin and calm
Oh! Rain that slow you fall
Oh! Rain that slowly you bring water

Water that runs
Water that roams
Water that destroys
Water free
Water sweet
Water salty
Oh! Rain

Oh! Rain that you our hearts dump you make
Oh! Rain that you our souls dump you make

- "Have you noticed that every time you cry it rains?
- Yes,….Rain makes me sad
- No my love it is because you cry that rains …. (cf. MIB II)

Don't cry…
Don't cry, you are free
Free to follow your heart, your soul
Free to chase your desires
Go! Go…
Oh! Rain

Oh! Rain that you fall at night
Oh! Rain that you wet bodies

Night of mystic
Night of desire
Night when the dreams come true

Bodies wet under the rain
Bodies that collude under the water like melting iron or clay
Bodies of clay
Bodies of sugar
Bodies that follow their desires
Bodies that melt into pleasure
Oh! Rain what music thou creates

Oh! Rain sweet rain, changing Rain
Oh! Rain
Rain of sweating bodies
Rain of burning souls
Rain of falling dreams
Rain of passion
Rain of yesterday, of today
Rain of my dreams
Rain of eternity
Oh! Rain sweet rain, changing Rain

PAIN

Seduce me
No
Seduce me
No
Seduce me
No
Seduce me
Yes

Here take my body
No
Here take my soul
No
Here take my heart
No
Here take my life
Yes

I shall grant you every dream
No
I shall grant you every wish
No
I shall grant you everything
No
I shall grant you my death
Yes

Love me
No
Love me
No
Love me
No
Hate me
Yes

Hate me
No
Hate me
No
Hate me
No
Love me
Yes

I am cold, hold me
No
I am cold, hold me
No
I am cold, hold me
No
I am dying, hold me
Yes

Oh! You my sorrow
Oh! You my pain
Oh! You my endless love
Bring her to me
Reach to the past and bring her forth
Shun the cold and bring the heat
Shun the night and bring the day
Shun the darkness and bring the light
Shun the misery and bring the joy

Follow me
No
Come with me
No
I need you
No
Farewell
Yes

Oh! You sweet pain
Cut my skin
Bleed my body
Melt my mind
Oh! You sweet pain
Forget me so that I forget you

Thursday, February 23, 2006

أصدقاء

My Friend,
Colours of green light up your white nights,
Fragrances of burning Cedar emanate from your soul,
Divided life is between Continents=2,
Red, blue, white stars claim your origin,
What shall you be?
What shall you be?
My Friend.

My Friend,
If knowledge ties bonds,
We shall tie the hardest,
If love creates lights,
We shall be the brightest lighthouses in the abyss.
My Friend.

My Friend,
We ride together these years,
These years of fire and steel,
Years not of innocence,
Not of filth, Not of blood
Not of riches, Not of power
Years filled with love potions we deny to admit
Years filled with deadly potions that we shall drink in the name of love
My Friend,
We explored Emotions
Promotions of Vodka, Distillations of Dreams
Promotions of Dreams, Distillations of Vodkas
My friend.

My Friend,
White and Dark spirits flow rivers through our nights
Flashes of cameras arrest our moments in eternity
Dim club lights and Bright days' sun
Presentations in the day, Presentations in the night
Cranky professors burn our days
Sweating bodies call us to a new torture
My Friend.

My Friend,
Who gave you the best present?
Was it today or maybe it came early?
Was it a man or a woman?
Was friend or foe?
My Friend,
What shall you remember?
What shall you remember?
My friend.